While I'm Waiting...

I wanted to write this post because of a song that keeps speaking to me the more I hear it. Plus, I really thought about doing a picture/music video blog b/c most of my life could be described in that way...sometimes I just ramble on with my words anyway. Did I lose you yet? Ok--then check out the music video;)

Many people relate to song lyrics and I am sure that many others relate specifically to this one. This past weekend I spent four hours in the car driving to Cedar Rapids from Des Moines and back. The stations get fuzzy in-between, so I have to change them--and I heard this song four times. I also listen online to the radio as I work and both times that I had turned on the radio the day before it was on too. Thus, I deduced that maybe there was just something in the song that God still wants to me to understand and I'm just so dense that I need to hear it over and over (quite possible)! 

Still need to finish posting pt. 2 on my crazy journey back to Iowa. But I have told many that I just have that feeling that God is about to do something in a big way and I just have to 'wait.' However, I am not so good at waiting. I'm kind of a person that likes to take action and get things done right now.

Case in point: When I learned to walk my dad stood me up and tried to get me to walk and I didn't 'wait' to try to figure it out and put one foot in front of the other. I didn't wait and grab on to the nearest piece of furniture or take a few wobbly steps and then wait to see if I lost my balance or not. I really did just take off running (and laughing as I did laps around the house and refused to go to bed that night). This story also provides great insight into my character as inherently I probably haven't changed much since then;)

Anyway, I think the reason I have such a hard time with the term 'wait' is because I think it correlates to being complacent and not doing everything that you can to make something happen. But it's different when you're waiting on the Lord. It is not 'blind' waiting. You are 'waiting' because you are trusting that His timing and ways are much better than your own.

I also love the message in the song where it says, 'I will move ahead bold and confident.' You can act boldly and confidently by knowing his ways are greater than yours. Waiting does not mean that you passively wait for God to show up and do things in your life.

I really can't logically explain why I'm back in Iowa (now, for eight weeks already) woo hoo! But I did know I was supposed to come back and serve him here in some way. Anyone asks me and I say, ' I don't really know--just that when God tells you to go somewhere---you go!

There is also a neat story from June of this year when I was flying back from Beijing to San Francisco and I was seated next to the random 60 year-old business-man (that didn't know that I was already feeling the nudge to go back but did know that I was from IA originally)He said to me, 'I don't know where you're at but I just think you should know that you don't have to be in San Francisco-I'm pretty sure you can go back and do big things for God in Iowa.' But that is a crazy God-coincidence story that is entirely another blog post! (I warned you that I ramble sometimes--but it really is a cool story that I might have to tell sometime)

I guess it's like the 11 year-old that I baby-sit once-in-awhile says when this song comes on, 'Hey, this is the song that's like the theme song of your life right now!' Yep--that about sums it up...now back to 'waiting'!

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

"To know how to wait. It is the great secret of success." -Joseph De Maistre